I had plans for this week — I had great plans — but here it is, Friday already, and as I look back, I realise the week has got the better of me. I seem to have spent most of this week rushing… scrambling… really struggling to get things done. And the harder I’ve pushed, somehow the less I’ve seemed to get done. It’s been very frustrating!
And even though I’ve felt like I don’t know why this week was so unproductive, the truth is, I do. Somehow, ever since the holidays, I have lost my rhythm — dyeing on the wrong days, blogging on the wrong days, working far too late into the night and then struggling to catch up the next day. Trying to mould my days around me, and ending up totally out of sync instead.
That is not my 2011. My 2011 is going to be calm, ordered, organised, productive, and purposeful. And so I am going to get my rhythm back. I am going to stop, rework the schedule, and get back on top of things.
I had a really good blog post planned for tonight but, though I scrambled through today with all my might, I never managed to get the photos taken for it. And as I sat here last night trying to think of a work around for that, or even a whole ‘nother blog post — squeezing my brain for ideas like an orange for juice — I suddenly realised that I was doing (again) what I’ve been doing every day since the holidays. But what I’ve been doing hasn’t been working, and I decided to stop.
So, I have no blog post for you today. Instead, I am going to spend the day working very hard on slowing down. I’m going to take things at a sensible pace, focus on the calm, and try find my rhythm again. And maybe, by not trying so darned hard to get everything done in a big rush, I will manage to get most things done — with a bit more success.
I’ll start with a nice cup of tea. It’s the best way to start any endeavor of calm, don’t you agree? And then I’ll start off into 2011 afresh — and this time, I’ll just put one foot in front of the other.